9 February 2012, 1:04 am
The lovely wife asked me to wake her up for her night out with her guide friends singing and playing around in the ktv (probably gonna go till late and it involves plenty of drinks). Admittedly I was a bit unhappy because the temptation for her to run around the bars afterwards might prove too much for her. Plus I have a bit of suspicion about the ktv places - even here in Sydney. So, she didn't want me along of course. I gently woke her up and left the room. Some time I later I heard her yelling out for me and asking me the time. She well and truly overslept. Guess what? You guessed it! She blamed me and called me idiot repeatedly and looked at me like I was s*** and quickly got ready and yelled that I am so unreliable and she cannot rely on me for anything.... When does someone become responsible for thier own actions and set their own alarms for dates etc. I constantly feel like this 26 year old woman is too reliant on me! And then abuses me above and beyond the level of respect. I had to cheer her up yesterday after a mix up over which bus to catch. This entailed pushing her on the swings. One of my biggest faults is feeling jealous and a little insecure often. My trust was broken once in the past and it took a long time for me to fix that. It still causes me small problems in the marriage today. Now, I am disappointed that she keeps bad mouthing me if something goes wrong - I'm the cause anyway because I've checked something wrong on the timetable or misread some information. Some might argue that I don't have my act together. About the jealousy: I hate it that we don't go out and have fun together here. We have only been back for a couple of months and don't have that much money behind us, but when I see other couples going out on the town having fun, I feel a twinge of sadness that I am left at home like a single man. I love nothing more than spending a lot of time with my wife but she loves her independence and today is the first time since we arrived that she has gone out with friends and actually the first night she's had out on the town. Hopefully next time I can get the invite. In China, many of her friends often wondered why she never invited her fiancee for singing etc. It was only on rare occassions that I got invited out or if she had no one else to go out with, then she would go out with me. Naturally, all the time alone made me lonely and upset and I went out with mates clubbing and almost got into some bad situations. The worst I did was grind against a girl. The feeling I have right now is one of being yelled at and left at home in the corner. Not a good feeling at all. That's why I was planning to go out and do a bit of clubbing on my own. I'm a little reluctant because Sydney is not so safe in some areas for a young guy on his own. Just for once though I would like to have something nice and not be stuck at home feeling like I'm just a trouble maker and not worth anything. I know, I know. Clubbing for a married man may not be a good idea but I am just fed up with her belittling me and then running off dressed up into the city. I have very strong reservations about her going out but I can't stop her from joining her friends and showing off in front of them all. She met her teacher for coffee the other day and i found texts between them the day before they went out. She told me everything so I thought nothing of it. Then I found them all deleted today. She never bothered to tell me where she's going and was acting vague about it all today. I repeatedly told her to be careful. There is one young woman in the group who seems to be trying to egg everyone on to going out clubbing afterwards. So I am not sure what state my wife will come home in this time. That's kind of why I wanted to head out into town so when she calls, I can come to her quicker. It's incredible because we just had a great night last night! Really the best we've had in probably months. I wish we could keep going in that direction! I suspect tonight won't be a pretty pciture when she comes home though. There'll be plenty of resentment over me not waking her up properly. I probably sound immature too, I guess... let's see if I can drag her out tomorrow night?? She has this thing about spending money. And I guess I'm about to further upset her as I just found out now (about 5 mins before 8) that she can get in for free....she probably arrived half an hour ago. Oh, and spend 3hrs worth and get to stay until 2am. That's why I think she will stay very late. One more thing, how would you guys react if your wife decided not to come home? I personally think that if she rang me to say she was crashing the night somewhere, I would hit the roof!... Read More »
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